Raw Nerves

It always amazes me when I thought that I've dealt with something, put it to bed, and can hear about or view a situation with a sort of clinical distance only to find that when actually faced with it, I am still hurt from it.

Tonight, I watched a rerun of NCIS and now have Lie To Me on. It went from an Al Qaeda cell trying to kill a Navy Commander to a construction site catastrophy. The two things in quick succession had me on the verge of tears. It immediately made me go back to 9/11.

It's been nearly 8 years and I'd think that things were a little more removed, a little easier to deal with situations that are similar to those scenes that we all saw.

I remember seeing all the people jumping from the buildings. I remember worrying about my parents. My mom works for SOCOM. My dad works for the FAA. Dad was in NJ already then.

I know that everyone in the country has their story.

I was driving to work. I was on the Mendota Bridge when it first came across the radio that a plane had hit one of the Towers. I remember rolling my eyes and thinking what idiot could miss a skyscraper, assuming that it was a small private plane. A few people injured and probably a few dead from the plane itself. By the time I made it to work, the second plane had hit and people knew that they were airliners. I ran into the office and turned on the TV in the conference room. I yelled for one of the other managers to come in and help me adjust the TV to get a clear channel in. Little by little more people filled the conference room.

Like everyone else in the country, I was glued to the news for days. I knew that my parents probably lost friends, maybe even people I knew. I had coworkers in NYC. It took three weeks to hear from all of them. One month later, I flew in to Newark. The cabbies all had stories. They could see the smoke and the dust.




And here I sit... nearly 8 years later... and it is still fresh.

AAAAaaaaarrrggggggghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

Ahhh... I feel better now.

It is one of those crazy busy days at work. The copiers are coming in. Mostly going smoothly. They arrived late. The analysts were here. IT was all ready. No copiers. The copiers won't print on the fax transmission sheets the number you dialed. It only prints the station ID for the receiving fax. Really, that is the only problem so far. Everyone seems to be able to hook up, print, fax, etc. Oh... we haven't quite figured out the scanning yet. There are several options. There is the one we want to do and the one that IT wants us to do. We are in negotiations.

On top of that, we have a fundraiser happening and tons of visitors. It is a crazy busy day.

I also decided today was a good day to start a 2 day juice fast. So far, not feeling hungry at all, but I planned my juices fairly well. I stocked up yesterday on a good combo of fruit, veggie and protein juices. I started out with a high protein one and then have been mixing every other 12ozs with a fruit/veggie and then protein again. Minor issue with itchiness from the soy in the protein one. Bolthouse and Naked are getting me through the day!

My stomach is making lots of funny noises. No hypoglycemia issues.

Ahh... The old copier company is here picking those up. Moving right along...